Beginnings, Bernie, and Silly Family

So my sister has had a blog for quite a while now, and just randomly I have read a few blogs posted by other people, and I decided, heck, why not try it out. I've never blogged before, and I'm not sure whether or not I will like it. I'm sure that some of the stuff I post will seem silly to most people, but that's okay.

Anyway, so I guess I will just jump right in. Today is easter, and it's a kind of interesting year for it, simply because I am doing absolutely nothing spectacular. Last year I went to my brother's house, and every year before that I was of course at home. But not this year, so that's a little different. It still has been a good day, but I have to say, I really kinda miss my family. Or rather I miss just being close to home. Like this morning I got a bunch of texts from my mom and sister with pictures about how they dyed the cats different colors, which is pretty awesome. I wish I could be there and join in on the fun, instead of sitting in my apartment all day doing homework.

I think I'm probably just feeling a little sorry for myself today. I'm not entirely sure why. I just am so ready for something different in my life then where I'm at right now. Like pretty much everyone I went to high school with, well probably not everyone, but a lot of the are all either getting married or are already married and are having kids now. And I have to admit that I am pretty jealous. I always say that I don't have time for a boyfriend, and the truth is that I probably don't, but at the same time, I would like to go on some dates occasionally, and possibly feel like I'm moving somewhere in my life. I'm just stuck waiting in every aspect. Waiting for something to happen. I know it shouldn't really be that way, but it really kinda feels like it is, I just need something different. The truth of the matter is, what I need to do most, is get back into going to the gym everyday. it's hard to feel sorry for yourself after working out hard everyday. I just can't seem to find that motivation. I would really like to get into great shape and run a marathon, but I just can't seem to make myself do it. I will though. I have five weeks before my families biggest loser is over and so that's five weeks to get my act together and win the thing. I can do it, and that also means only five more weeks of this semester!! I'm pretty excited to be done with physics. I just wish I knew what I was doing this summer. But it will all work out how it's suppose to I suppose. Having that little bit of faith is killer. That whole faith in the Lord's timing has to be one of the hardest things to do, but I am working on it.