Emotions, Endorphins, and Summer Plans

Well, so this week has been a pretty rough week for me. I hit an emotional low yesterday, the lowest I've been in quite some time. I don't exactly know why, it just seems that things aren't going my way. I guess that's the problem when you turn your life to God and tell him that you're willing to do whatever is right for you and so if he'll show you the way you'll take it. Unfortunately his way doesn't always agree entirely with what I was hoping was the way I was headed. And sometimes that is a little hard to have to take, but I trust him, and I know it will work out like it is suppose to. That being said, I am pretty sure that I didn't get the Pharmacy Job that I was hoping for, which is too bad because I really wanted it, but I guess if it's not right then it's not right and something else will come up instead. I also didn't get the on campus job, which truth be told I'm kind of relieved about that. Which means it's pretty much settled what I'm doing this summer, though not entirely. Unless I get offered a job in the next two weeks then I will be moving back home again for the summer and try to find a job down there, which is good I guess. I'm excited to be going home but finding a job will not be enjoyable. There is still the possibility that I got the job in Tennessee, which means I'll live at home for part of the summer and in Knoxville, Tennessee for part. I should hear about it in the next two days. I really hope I get it because that would be a crazy good experience, but I guess we'll have to see.

I have also been super stressed out with school and finals week coming up that I have been feeling maybe a little overwhelmed, and I'm broke, which makes me stressed out even more. I know that I really should go work out and that would help me manage the stress but I think I maybe caught a stomach bug or something because I have been sick to my stomach and had a migraine for the last week, which is rather unfortunate, then my visiting teachers totally stood me up. That was annoying too. But guess what, I'm pretty sure that I have started doing a little better at overcoming my blues of yesterday. I went for a run today in the rain, and although it was relatively short, it was pretty enjoyable and just that short amount of physical activity really kicked my endorphins in and I feel significantly less stressed already, so that is very good. I just need to stick it out for the next few weeks and I'll be fine. Things will work out for the best.