Changes, Colton, and Happiness

So today I made a huge step in my life. I jumped off the edge, without thought of what may be below me, without much care, because it doesn't matter, I know that he's going to be there to catch me. To those who follow me on Facebook, which I'm pretty sure is basically every reader of this blog...you will know what I'm talking about already. Yep, that's right, I am now officially in a relationship. A long distance one no less...

Things are moving so fast that it terrifies me, but he makes me so happy that I forget to be afraid. The last few weeks have been some of the best of my entire life, and I seriously am just happy all the time. I have been putting off the decision to call it a relationship for probably a few weeks now, because I'm me, because I'm cautious, because I'm afraid, because letting yourself be that vulnerable is hard, because it is very fast and I tend to think things through for a long time before I decide on them. But after talking to a few friends this week, and my little brother, I was struggling to keep fighting the decision, I didn't want to fight it. I'm so crazy about him that I can hardly handle that I have to be away from him. I haven't even spent very much time with him, but I just want to be with him every second of everyday, he's incredible. He's everything I've ever dreamed of, and that in and of itself scares me...

But last night, after talking to Alex White for a little bit, he asked me a question that changed everything. I'm not going to put the question in here, but my answer to that question made me rethink everything. If that was my answer then how could I possibly not call this what it is, but still I fought it, all last night and most of this morning, until finally, I decided that I didn't want to fight it anymore. So my Facebook relationship status has officially changed. And my reaction to that simple thing surprised me. I thought a complete freak out would ensue, I thought I would be scared, but honestly, all I feel is completely and utterly happy about it, the only thing that I don't feel like flying about is the fact that I don't get to see him for another week and a half... I just feel so right about everything that is happening right now, and I think my cheek bones may break from excess smiling.

He called me sweetheart today....I could seriously die happy right this second. Life is incredible. He is incredible. It's still early, it's still new, and there is still a lot that we are going to have to work out and get through, but for him, I'll do it, because he is worth every second.