I don't really have a ton to write today. It's been a very stressful week for me, I don't exactly know why but it's just like everything caught up with me and I had a little bit of a freak out on tuesday night, but life is a little better now. I wish like crazy though that I could have Jack up here with me. I love his freakin' face. He makes me laugh all the time, and he just loves me so much. I miss him.
Anyway, so I gave my first speech in my public speaking class today. That was completely nerve wracking, and not really my all time favorite thing ever. I think that I did okay in it, but I don't know, I was shaking like crazy, which is just silly. I was only in front of like 20 people, and the speech wasn't even graded. It makes me kind of sad sometimes. I wish that I wasn't such a baby about things, I wish I was braver. I wish I didn't let my fears rule me so much of the time. Which is kind of ironic because I am all about facing your fears. I don't believe that you sho
uld let being afraid of something stop you from doing it, yet if I really look at it, I kind of do a lot more than I should. It's sad and I really need to work on changing that.
Speaking of facing fears...they are starting a ballroom team most likely up here at the U, and I am thinking about trying out for it. Last night they had a ballroom social and I have to admit I was kind of nervous to go. I haven't danced since high school really, and there is always that small part of me that says, "what if I suck? what if no one asks me to dance and I just end up standing there alone...blah blah blah.." anyway, but I went, and I ended up having a blast. I forgot how much I absolutely love dancing!! Recently I was updating my bucket list, and I had on there that I wanted to waltz at my wedding. I seriously considered taking it off, I didn't really think that I cared enough about it to really make it worth it. But after last night, I am definitely keeping it on there. I love it!!! And I'm super glad I went to the social.
Quick side notes, I am going to dinner tonight with Adam, that should be fun. I haven't seen him since Christmas so that will be good. I also took down all of my countdowns. Sad. It does make me sad, but it's better in a lot of ways. I just couldn't deal with the stress they entailed this week and so I need to detox my life for a bit. We'll see if that changes. I don't know how well you can tell from the picture, but that is my parents 6 month old puppy Steiger. He is so awesome. And such a sweet heart. He's really smart as well and makes Jack seem like the dumbest dog ever (which he just might be). Anyway, so that puppy weighs over 100 pounds already. He's going to be so huge!! It's awesome!
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