Frustrations, Faith, and Blessings

This post may be slightly more personal than most, but I figure that anyone who would actually read this won't mind. I just want to start by saying how amazing it is how much God loves me. I truly don't deserve the amount of effort that he puts forth trying to lift me and make me happy. He always places my feet exactly where they should go, and puts exactly what I need right in my path. I'm so grateful that he doesn't ever give up on my, he truly is amazing, but I wish I could have a little more faith sometimes. Faith that he's not just going to give up on me. Faith that he's always going to love me and isn't going to leave me alone. Faith that he cares about what's important to me. Faith that he wants what is best for me and knows what that is. Faith in his timing. I just get so frustrated with myself sometimes. Why can't I just put it in his hands and trust that he knows best, and that his timing is best. I hate it when I find myself thinking that I can't wait for things to happen and my life to really start. This is my life!! I'm living it now, and waiting around for those big events is making me miss the small ones that take my breath away. I want to be better about living my life, having faith in God's timing, and patience that it will all work out eventually. I want to live up to the amazing woman that God meant for me to be. I want to make Him proud. I want to live up to that trust he has placed in me, and be worthy of every blessing he has heaped upon me. He gives me so much more than I deserve and I'm tired of taking advantage of it, or worse, like feeling like it's not enough. I'm tired of waiting. I'm tired of hoping that eventually things are going to work out. I just have to trust that they will, and do my best to keep moving forward, appreciating every sweet breath that I'm given, every white cloud or beautiful flower that I was given to enjoy in my life.

Running, Roommates, and Classes

Well a few short updates. The first week of school is now over for me. Yay for no friday classes. I am actually pretty excited about my classes this semester. They will be difficult, but I think I will learn a lot in all of them and will be able to do all of them just fine. I am already ahead in almost all of my classes so it is definitely a good start to the semester. I will have to stay that way too. My genetics class has a test every other week, which is kind of crazy, but it's actually kind of good. It means that I will have to stay caught up at all time and the tests don't cover a whole ton of material so they will be a lot easier to study for. Anatomy is going to be my hardest class by far, just because there is so much information to memorize, but I think as long as I study it every day I will be just fine. I am taking two institute classes as well to try and make up for the ones that I have failed. Both of them seem really good. One is taught by Jack Marshall and he is basically hilarious!! Plus he gives great lessons, at least so far. The first lesson by him was pretty much the best lesson I have had in a very long time.

I have also gone back to work now too. It will be good. My new project this semester will be very similar to my last project but I think I will be able to do it relatively easily. It's a lot of work but not really hard, and hey, I'm getting paid!!

Running is going fairly good too. I kind of got off to a bad start last weekend and the beginning of this week. I haven't wanted to get up early enough to go before class and it's been so hot that it's hard to go after class, but I have still gone a few times and am mostly where I want to be. It helps that I apparently owe my dad two miles for every mile that he takes Jack running. Which means I owe him almost 20 miles every week, and I started out being 16 miles behind, so not so good there but I am almost caught up and hopefully I will be able to get more so. I ran last night at sunset, it was really pretty. I am really enjoying how gorgeous everything is right now!! I do miss running with Jack though. It's a lot harder to go without any company, and since Bridget refuses to run with me, I'm just on my own, which I guess is okay because this really is my thing and I'm the only one that can do it for myself. I'm planning to run down 13th south and around sugar house park this weekend, so excited. It is so pretty!!

My roommates are really super nice. About the nicest people that you could ever hope to meet. They do however like it super hot at night, which is a little annoying but won't be a problem once it cools down enough outside to make opening my window useful. It's also really nice because none of them like to cook, and they don't really even know how. So I basically have the entire kitchen, freezer and fridge to myself. It's pretty great. Plus it's always really clean in there as well. Which keeps a lot of stress off of me. Anyway, I guess that is all for now.

Schedule, Six Pack, and Plans

Well so I know this is a ways away, but I have worked out my training schedule for the full marathon I am running in June, starting my training where I leave off after the half in Nov. So here's that. I am running the Utah Valley Marathon most likely and I would like to finish it in at least 5 hours, which is a little faster than I five mph hour pace. With any luck I will do better than that though. My short runs during the week I'm going to mainly be focusing on getting my speed built up a little while the long runs will be focusing on endurance. It's kinda funny how my short runs will be the same as my long runs used to be... I'm so excited to finally be that girl!! I just need to start getting a six pack and then we will really be in business!!

Full Marathon Training Schedule

Goal: 5:00

Week	Day 1 (Mon)	Day 2 (Wed)	Day 3 (Fri)	Long Run (Sat or Sun)	Total Miles
1-Nov 8	2	2	2	6	12
2-Nov 15	3	4	2	8	17
3-Nov 22	3	4	2	9	18
4-Nov 29	4	5	3	10	22
5-Dec 6	2	3	3	10	18
6-Dec 13	6	5	2	8	21
7-Dec 20	3	4	3	11	22
8-Dec 27	3	4	2	12	21
9-Jan 3	5	6	4	9	24
10-Jan 10	3	4	3	10	20
11-Jan 17	4	6	2	13	25
12-Jan 24	3	3	2	14	22
13-Jan 31	4	5	4	9	22
14-Feb 7	3	4	2	14	23
15-Feb 14	4	5	3	15	27
16-Feb 21	4	5	3	16	28
17-Feb 28	5	6	4	11	26
18-Mar 7	3	4	2	17	26
19-Mar 14	6	7	5	10	28
20-Mar 21	3	4	2	18	27
21-Mar 28	5	6	4	15	30
22-Apr 4	3	4	2	18	27
23-Apr 11	4	5	3	19	31
24-Apr 18	4	5	3	20	32
25-Apr 25	3	4	2	21	30
26-May 2	4	5	3	22	34
27-May 9	3	4	2	23	32
28-May 16	4	5	3	24	36
29-May 23	3	4	2	25	34
30-May 30	5	6	4	20	35
31-June 6	1	2	---	26.2!	29.2