It's been a little while since I've updated this blog. Most everything has been on my pregnancy blog instead of this one, and life has just been busy overall. But yeah, in case you missed it, we are having a baby!!! I will be 26 weeks tomorrow. Only 99 days left! It's going to be a little girl, due on January 15, 2014. We are so in love with her already! And since everyone asks, we have picked out the name Elli Bernice. Though it may or may not change at some point if we feel it just isn't what her name is supposed to be. Colton is hard at work with a crazy busy semester and will finish up his application for the U's master of OT program next week. Interviews are in February so keep sending up prayers that he gets one. I have no doubts that he will be fine and get in but it never hurts to have more people praying. I'm just going through my second year of pharmacy school and it's flying by faster than I can even comprehend.
I mostly just wanted to post because I wanted to talk about something I have started to learn since being pregnant. It's been a hard lesson for me, and one that I wish I would have learned earlier in my life. But it is a beautiful message to understand and know now. Anyone who knows me personally probably knows that I have some body image issues (what girl doesn't in our society, right) but mine are bad. I have little to no self-esteem at times and I struggle to feel like I am good enough, pretty enough, skinny enough, etc. But so many things have changed with this little life growing inside me. I have begun to realize and see my body for the incredible miracle that it truly is. It's amazing. Truly. It has the capacity to grow this little life, and provide her with everything she needs to become a whole person. It is strong, healthy. I can lift incredibly heavy objects for a women, I can hike for miles without stopping. I am working on my feet 20 hours a week, going to school full time with 18 graduate level credits, and 6 months pregnant, yet my body just keeps on going and giving me all it has to give. I walk one hour 4 days a week now, to and from class, and it just does it. It has run two half marathons in under 3 hours with no training, simply because I asked it to do so. It's always been amazing and has never let me down. So why do I hate it? HOW can I hate it? It is beautiful. It is a miracle unlike anything else in this world. And slowly, my whole world has been shifting around this concept. My body is imperfect. But I love it anyway. I love those imperfections that make me me. I love the fact that I have incredible strength and stamina that makes it possible for me to do everything I love and want to do, things that I might not be able to do if I had the perfect skinny body I used to dream of. My body has been good to me, and I want to start being as good to it as it is to me. I want to be able to instill in my daughter a love of her body. A realization of the miracle that she is, to me and otherwise. So I will still exercise, I still plan to run and train for a half-marathon next year, but it's different now. I don't want to run because maybe if I do so then I will be skinny and finally be worthy of my own love. I want to do it because I do love my body, I love it enough to treat it right. To exercise it and make it as healthy as it can be. And everything about that thought process is amazing.
So guess what? I dare you to try. To try and see your body for the miracle that it is instead of the imperfections that it has. To try and love it, because it is so good to you. It makes it possible for everything that you do and have and love to be available. I promise you that if you can do it, if you can find the miracle within yourself, your world will never be the same again.
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
Sunday, June 23, 2013
New apartment, Nephew, and Life in general
We moved into our new apartment!! I'm so excited. I like it so much better than our old one. It's a little smaller than the old one was but it has two bedrooms and the space is just used sooooooo much better. I actually have some counter space, and a pantry and a coat closet and cupboards in my bathroom. Its so worth the move. We bought carpet and my dad came and helped us put it down then Colton's family helped us move everything over and unpack. I'm so grateful for all of the help everyone gave us. I love living here!! Our new living room and kitchen with awesome giant windows.
I also had to post a few pictures of my nephew because he is so stinking cute and I can't even believe how adorable he is!! I love this stinkin' kid!
Well, life is good right now. Just living and Colton is taking a summer physics class. I'm just enjoying my time off for the summer even though I'm working so much that it isn't really time off. At least my brain isn't being so overstimulated.
I also had to post a few pictures of my nephew because he is so stinking cute and I can't even believe how adorable he is!! I love this stinkin' kid!
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
P2, Plans, and Summer
Well, I have officially survived my first year of pharmacy school!!! I cannot believe that I am now basically a P2. this last year went by so fast. I have almost been married for a year too. I can't believe how fast it has flown by. Pharmacy school has been good to be so far. My lowest grade is a B, which I'm not ashamed of at all. It's hard. But now I only have two years of classes left and then one of rotations. I can't believe that!! I will be done with school before I know it.
Colton's semester went great. He ended up getting a 4.0 this semester. I am so proud of him, but not really surprised. I knew he could do it. I'm really excited for him though, this gives him a great starting place on his prerequisites for applying to the OT program next fall.
Really that is all I have to say. Sad, well except that we are moving again in June. I'm so excited. The apartments that we are moving to have so much nicer kitchens, which is exciting. I'm not excited to move though. Which reminds me, my parents are moving. They have to be out of the old house by the end of may. I'm excited for them, but I'm also really sad. I grew up in that house, and it has a lot of memories, but it will be a good change as well. The new house is really nice. Although I haven't seen it since they started cleaning it up. I hope that will be next weekend. Well anyway, that's really all for now. This is a boring post, sorry, but it's late and I'm tired.
Colton's semester went great. He ended up getting a 4.0 this semester. I am so proud of him, but not really surprised. I knew he could do it. I'm really excited for him though, this gives him a great starting place on his prerequisites for applying to the OT program next fall.
Really that is all I have to say. Sad, well except that we are moving again in June. I'm so excited. The apartments that we are moving to have so much nicer kitchens, which is exciting. I'm not excited to move though. Which reminds me, my parents are moving. They have to be out of the old house by the end of may. I'm excited for them, but I'm also really sad. I grew up in that house, and it has a lot of memories, but it will be a good change as well. The new house is really nice. Although I haven't seen it since they started cleaning it up. I hope that will be next weekend. Well anyway, that's really all for now. This is a boring post, sorry, but it's late and I'm tired.
Thursday, February 21, 2013
Procrastinating, Prayers, and General Updates
Well, it's been awhile I suppose, which means it is time for an update. Or really I am just incredibly tired of studying for my exams this week and some I'm trying to procrastinate a little....
Anyway, since my last post, let's see what has happen? Not a lot of big events that I can think of, unless I never posted about somethings, which is very likely. So, where to begin. My first semester of pharmacy school is over, and I passed. Thank heavens...With really good grades too I may add. Now, I didn't get a 4.0 by any stretch, but I worked hard for the grades I got and I'm proud of them. This semester has been going by in a whirlwind. I'm not quite as good as I was last semester at staying on top of things, and that makes it hard, but truth be told, I'm tired. I'm tired of school. I haven't stopped going to school since I was 5 years old, and I'm tired. I love school, I really do, and I don't know what I will do when it is no longer such a huge part of my life, but right now I'm tired. Well, only 69 days left this semester and then just three more years. I think I can handle that. I can't believe how fast my first year has already gone by! In everything. I have been married for almost nine months already. That is insane!
By anyway, Colton is also doing really great in school and enjoying it. He decided he wants to go into Occupational Therapy and is just finishing up his human development degree over the next year so he can apply for the masters program. He is working so hard this semester that I'm looking really lazy next to him, but I'm so proud of him, and I know he's going to be an amazing OT, so send some prayers our way that he will get into the program at the U next fall so he can be finishing up while I am.
My brother Adam got a job as a high way patrol man out in dusuene (I have no idea how to spell it) county out by Roosevelt. He seems to be really loving it, and I'm really proud of him. It's strange to consider that two of my siblings are in careers now and that I will be joining them in the near future. When did we get so old? Oh, and speaking of careers, my mom is almost finished with her masters degree, I think she finishes this year actually. Go Mommy! I'm so proud of all of my family for everything they are accomplishing.
Little Doodle Bug is getting cuter and cuter every second. He's crawling like a mad man now and is just starting to try and walk. He's growing up way too fast! But he gives everyone loves all the time and is seriously one of the happiest babies ever. He is also not allergic to milk anymore. Thank heavens, that was a pain, but we are still waiting for more allergy testing to find out about the wheat.
My in-laws are also doing great. They are so great at helping us out, they probably have no idea how much I depend on them. I am so grateful that I ended up marrying into a family that I like and get along with almost as much as my own. They seriously are the best, and they of course raised the most amazing man for me to marry and I will forever be grateful to them for that.
I guess I have procrastinated enough and should study for my test tomorrow. I will tell you, Pharmacy school is hard. Very very hard. but it's so worth every second.
Anyway, since my last post, let's see what has happen? Not a lot of big events that I can think of, unless I never posted about somethings, which is very likely. So, where to begin. My first semester of pharmacy school is over, and I passed. Thank heavens...With really good grades too I may add. Now, I didn't get a 4.0 by any stretch, but I worked hard for the grades I got and I'm proud of them. This semester has been going by in a whirlwind. I'm not quite as good as I was last semester at staying on top of things, and that makes it hard, but truth be told, I'm tired. I'm tired of school. I haven't stopped going to school since I was 5 years old, and I'm tired. I love school, I really do, and I don't know what I will do when it is no longer such a huge part of my life, but right now I'm tired. Well, only 69 days left this semester and then just three more years. I think I can handle that. I can't believe how fast my first year has already gone by! In everything. I have been married for almost nine months already. That is insane!
By anyway, Colton is also doing really great in school and enjoying it. He decided he wants to go into Occupational Therapy and is just finishing up his human development degree over the next year so he can apply for the masters program. He is working so hard this semester that I'm looking really lazy next to him, but I'm so proud of him, and I know he's going to be an amazing OT, so send some prayers our way that he will get into the program at the U next fall so he can be finishing up while I am.
My brother Adam got a job as a high way patrol man out in dusuene (I have no idea how to spell it) county out by Roosevelt. He seems to be really loving it, and I'm really proud of him. It's strange to consider that two of my siblings are in careers now and that I will be joining them in the near future. When did we get so old? Oh, and speaking of careers, my mom is almost finished with her masters degree, I think she finishes this year actually. Go Mommy! I'm so proud of all of my family for everything they are accomplishing.
Little Doodle Bug is getting cuter and cuter every second. He's crawling like a mad man now and is just starting to try and walk. He's growing up way too fast! But he gives everyone loves all the time and is seriously one of the happiest babies ever. He is also not allergic to milk anymore. Thank heavens, that was a pain, but we are still waiting for more allergy testing to find out about the wheat.
My in-laws are also doing great. They are so great at helping us out, they probably have no idea how much I depend on them. I am so grateful that I ended up marrying into a family that I like and get along with almost as much as my own. They seriously are the best, and they of course raised the most amazing man for me to marry and I will forever be grateful to them for that.
I guess I have procrastinated enough and should study for my test tomorrow. I will tell you, Pharmacy school is hard. Very very hard. but it's so worth every second.
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