Who am I?

There comes a time in life that it becomes necessary to take a step back and examine who we are becoming, and if needed, change the road we are taking to get there.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Rain, Running, and Jack

Well, this is the most I have posted in a while, but I'm just feeling fantastic today and so I feel the need to leave behind a memorial to the amazingness of today. It has been raining the last few days, and can I just say, I love it!! I love rain so much. It's just like a complete cleansing of everything! It makes everything better for some reason. And I'm finally getting back on track with my running, and it is fantastic! I have decided that running while listening to books on tape is amazing, and makes things go by a whole lot faster, and makes it a lot easier to lose yourself in the run. Jack has been amazing to run with too, he's behaved extremely well actually. Today, we went running in a completely downpour, before we had even gone half a mile we were both completely drenched, but Jack did surprisingly well, i thought he wouldn't want to run in the rain, but he seemed happy that he got to go run, even if it was pouring. It was a fantastic run, very refreshing. I suppose that's really all I have to say right now, this was sort of jumbled, but I'm just so happy. I'm sure going to miss Jack when I have to move again though. I love that dog. He seriously cracks me up, and makes me so happy all the time. The other day he thought I told him to jump in the truck, so he did, and when I went out to shut the door to one of the cars he was still sitting in there, whining his head off as he was getting pounded with rain. I love his face!! Then yesterday Sarah and I rode the horses around the block, which was great except I was super scared that Sarah was going to get bucked off at one point, and when we got home we hosed off the horses and dogs because it was so hot, and Jack was getting in Sarah's way as she tried to get Maggie over to the hose, so I told her just to spray him in the face and he would leave, yeah didn't work, silly baby. Anyway...'til later.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Pharmacy, Paid, and Roommates

Well things are flying by, I can't believe that July is just about over. I can't believe how fast this summer has gone by. I haven't done near as good as I wanted to with a lot of things, namely running and working out and losing weight, but I am getting better. I have started to do a lot better with how i eat, and I will continue to do so, especially when I am buying my own food again.

I have figured out a few things, my schedule for the next two years for school so that hopefully I will be able to fit everything in before I graduate, but it meant that I had to add another class this semester. Sad, but 16 credits won't kill me. I've got all of my textbooks for this semester and have started doing a little bit of studying so hopefully I'm going to be able to stay on top of my classes this year and keep my grades up because I desperately need to. both for my scholarship, and for pharmacy school, which speaking of pharmacy school, I found out that there is another school in Utah!! YAY!! I'm excited about that. The University of Southern Nevada has a campus in South Jordan, so if I don't get into the U's school then hopefully I can get into that one instead. It will cost me $50,000 more to go there, but it's worth it to be able to stay in Utah. I think I will apply to the U, USN, and the Idaho State University, and then if I don't get into any of those then I will take a year off and apply again the next year. I think I will at least get into one of them though, I'd be surprised if I didn't, but I guess we will have to see.

So I am going to be getting paid in lab again this next semester, and hopefully spring semester as well... I will be making about $120 a week, which will be enough to pay for everything I need to and save a little bit as well, so that is really exciting for me. I was worried that I wasn't going to have a job, so I did take out a little bit more in student loans, but I'm hoping to not have to use any of it, which I probably won't have to use much, I'm super grateful for that fact. Seriously, paying tithing works.

That's basically all for now I suppose, I'm moving in a little over 3 weeks!! crazy! I will have 2 Chinese and 1 Japanese roommates so that should be really interesting for me and very different as well. I'll probably learn a lot.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Hiking, Holidays, and Goals

Well if I don't blog every week my sister starts to go crazy telling me that I need to update, although I don't have a ton to say....Here goes.

Well on the third of july, so last saturday, my family (minus the older two) went and hiked this little short technical canyon called Hidden Canyon, which it was a lot of fun. I haven't done anything like that in quite awhile so I was pretty nervous, but thanks to the level headedness of my little brother I was just fine. It lead to a few realizations though. #1. I am really bad at that kind of stuff. I have no balance, no natural grace or agility, I'm not entirely fearless like my sister, I usually end up taking awhile and getting pretty dinged up just because I'm not that great at it, but that fact really doesn't matter, because I try. I go and do all the hikes, regardless of how bad at it I am, and I think that says alot. #2. I want to marry somebody who is willing to do all that kind of stuff as well. I may not always enjoy hiking, but I would hate to never be able to go do it with my husband. #3. I definitely want my kids to learn how to do all of that stuff. I want them to learn from an early age to be completely fearless when it comes to that kind of stuff. I have met a few people in the last little while who were completely helpless, and I don't want my kids to ever end up being like that.

Anyway, so 4th of July sunday, yeah we didn't really celebrate. One of the disadvantages to not having any little kids around, holidays kinda lose their appeal. Oh well. It wasn't a bad day, we got hot dogs from maverik, I got to watch my dad get shocked by the electric fence. That was awesome! and hilarious! and just hung out as a family, which I wouldn't have it any other way.

And I guess last but not least, fitness updates....I haven't done super great. I did a little better but not really. I just can't seem to make myself go running very much lately, but I will get back into it this week. It makes me so mad because I want to be that girl. The one that you always see running. The one that you can't believe would ever run for that long at a time. The one that loves it. I'm pretty happy with who I am for the most part, but that is one aspect of me that I want to change. So it's another week of reapplying myself and doing better than I have been.

I get to go to Salt Lake next week just for like a day to get some paperwork filled out for a scholarship, and I'm going to go turn in my resume to a butt-load of pharmacies, and hopefully I can get into one for the fall and get certified. I'm really excited to go. I think I'm getting ready to move back up there. This summer has been good, but I'm ready to go back to having my own thing going on. My own house, and all that jazz. There are actually only 5 weeks until I go back. I can't believe that!! This summer has gone by super fast. Which is both good and bad. I'm looking forward to a lot of things this next year, but also dreading them at the same time. Hopefully they will go good.